Tomorrow is never a guarantee
This truth is present and weighty
Time is ticking towards thirty
This future I cannot quite see
Finds me, now a divorcee
In this strange land where I’m oddly free
It’s not what I thought it would be
Married again, a mother wannabe
Yet I pause here in place like a lonely tree
Unmoved by the wind and the whispering sea
Missing my pain like an amputee
The Wisdom of Gavroche 
Thought of this quote as I read your post:
“I think it’s much more interesting to live not knowing than to have answers which might be wrong. I have approximate answers and possible beliefs and different degrees of uncertainty about different things, but I am not absolutely sure of anything and there are many things I don’t know anything about, such as whether it means anything to ask why we’re here. I don’t have to know an answer. I don’t feel frightened not knowing things, by being lost in a mysterious universe without any purpose, which is the way it really is as far as I can tell.”
– Richard Feynman (1918 – 1988)