The Fall and The Thud… by Toni Cross



Harsh splinters grind between black teeth

A deathly sentiment hovers beneath

My enemy bites at me with a word

I’m struck down, fallen, like a bird

With the rush, with the thump, of a hollow thud

In the dust, my red blood makes bright mud

I wait helpless as a stunned sparrow

When fierce death comes to harrow

Where is He who truly sees all

That One who cares every time I fall?


Fighting Gray… By Toni L.A. Cross

Noble warrior renowned

Listen to this harrowing sound

Draining cries of earth’s deep sorrow

We will live to see the morrow?

Life is leaking from a crack

Faceless death will now attack

Who has left us silent here?

What foe won’t visibly appear?

We know not who or why we fight

Though we press on in this bleak night

O! That gray would fade from sight

And black be black and white be white!

How Faith Is Found… By Toni L.A. Cross

If you don’t know how faith is found

Then watch this sparrow hit the ground

And listen for the whispered voice

And wait to see Him give me choice

To choose my way to death or life

To pick a path of joy or strife

He forces not the best on me

Nor scorns my fall for all to see

His hand is still beneath my form

Waiting to shelter me in the storm

I Am Yours, Save Me

The other day, I found myself watching, or rather, re-watching, the movie “Luther“. I must say, it truly inspired me in my faith and made me think about some things I have not thought about for quite some time.

In one scene, Martin Luther is being tormented by his own doubts and fears, as well as the accusation of the Devil. He cries out from his despair, with desire for a God who is merciful, a God who loves, and who he can love. His spiritual father places a cross in Martin’s hands and says “Bind yourself to Christ and you will know God‘s love. Say to Him, I am Yours, save me.” From that point forward, Luther’s life revolved around that very thought. In the darkest times of his journey, when all the world seemed to hate him, he turned to the One he knew would always love him.

As I watched and tears welled up in my eyes, I heard these verses ringing through the corners of my memory:

Ephesians 2 

13 But now in Christ Jesus you who once were far away have been brought near by the blood of Christ.


Hebrews 4 

14 Therefore, since we have a great high priest who has ascended into heaven,[f] Jesus the Son of God, let us hold firmly to the faith we profess. 15 For we do not have a high priest who is unable to empathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are—yet he did not sin. 16 Let us then approach God’s throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.

I hope that this will encourage someone else out there. Seek Him, He will not fail you.

Father… by Toni L.A. Cross


I molded you and fashioned you

I guided you with care

My hand was always holding you

When no one else was there

I saw the depths of your dreams

I wept at your heart laid bare

You shove me back with pudgy fists

Say that I’m not fair

Don’t you see I love you so?

I’ll take the pain you bear

Give up to me and let me free

You from yourself