Haunted by Toni L.A. Cross

The darkness comes
with teeth and knives
I’m hounded by a dream
Chasing, swirling, whirling night
Deeper, harder, plunging faster
Torn by rabid black
Frantic now
the walls are slick
No doors or windows here
Can’t breathe
Can’t speak
Or whisper here
No sound escapes
This place


Flaming Sheep: A Nightmare Villanelle by Toni Cross


Pulsing through my mind is nothing but fear

Running from a dream that stalks the edges of my sleep

I’m screaming and screaming where no one can hear


From the darkness, faces are pausing to leer

I fight towards consciousness, but I’m in too deep

Pulsing through my mind is nothing but fear


In this careening night, there’s no one to steer

I’m slipping on a cliff that is slick and too steep

I’m screaming and screaming where no one can hear


Wild flame of thought burning swift to sear

No counting can be done as I stare at blazing sheep

Pulsing through my mind is nothing but fear


Reality is thin; like oxygen it’s sheer

Bolting my eyes tightly, I will not steal a peep

I’m screaming and screaming where no one can hear


Fast breath, slow breath, gasping, acrid hot and clear

Daring into nothing, I quickly, blindly leap

Pulsing through my mind is nothing but fear

I’m screaming and screaming where no one can hear



What is a villanelle?

“The highly structured villanelle is a nineteen-line poem with two repeating
rhymes and two refrains. The form is made up of five tercets followed by a
quatrain. The first and third lines of the opening tercet are repeated
alternately in the last lines of the succeeding stanzas; then in the final
stanza, the refrain serves as the poem’s two concluding lines.”

For more, go to: http://www.poets.org/viewmedia.php/prmMID/5796


What can man do to me?

This morning I had a thought while I was showering. Most people kinda edge around the book of Job, mainly because we don’t really understand why God would be so “unfair” as to let all that stuff happen to him.

But then I realized- that is the point of it all. It wasn’t some kind of weird test- God was just showing Job- and all of us- that Satan really couldn’t touch anything that really “mattered”. And you think… wait a sec, Satan messed with everything in Job’s life!

Well, did he? He couldn’t take away Job’s relationship with God, which was the only thing that would have more than a temporary effect, in the view of eternity. That is what Satan was really after, and God was saying, “See? You can never mess with My relationship with My kids and you can’t do any lasting harm.”

The only person who can jeopardize our relationship with God is us ourselves.

So, therefore, we really don’t have anything in the whole world to be afraid of.

I never really understood that scripture that says, “The Lord is with me, I’m not afraid. What can man do to me?” I was always like, “Dude. There are TONS of things man can do to me! Are you flippin’ kidding??”

But really, there isn’t anything that people or the devil can do to us. Not that has permanent consequences.

I mean, kill me? I go to heaven.

Torture me? I experience the presence of God like never before.

Hate me? Give me a chance to love, like I have never had before.

Keep me from sleeping? I stay up and pray.

Plant strife between family members? Give me a chance to overcome and discover a deeper level of relationship.