Infinite Agony… By Toni Cross

You infiltrated the atoms of this heart

The essence of me is ripped apart

 This suction inside of me

 

 This vacuum where you should be

  

My blood pours out into pools

From a gaping wound, scarlet dribbles and drools

  

Your roots once crept into my soul

And now I’m nothing but an empty ghoul

Wandering lost in my own skin

 Breathing air that’s hopeless and thin

Oh to sleep and not to dream

Without this pain, unending scream

 

Infinite second of agony

Never, ever cutting me free

All my tears of rage are shed

I’m left here to live as if I were not dead

 

  

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craving yada… by Toni L.A. Cross

 

 

craving yada
risking all for the sake of unfathomable possibility
to be known completely by someone else
memorized
like the taste of one’s own breath
or the smell of rain
naked and vulnerable like a newborn babe
fragile throbbing essence of self
cast into the trust of another
eyes scrunched shut for the terrible leap
ingrained survival screaming within
overwhelmed
by a infinite yearning
higher and deeper than the need for water
more desperate than a lung’s demand for oxygen
craving yada

 

יֹודֵעַ (yo-dey-ah)
This is the verb yada meaning “to know” but written in the participle form meaning “knowing” a present action. In Hebrew the verb yada means much more than to know. It means to have an intimate and interactive relationship with its subject.